What a wonderfully insightful piece. I am sure that all humans suffer from this affliction, but I was able to connect with it in a very personal and visceral way. Thank you for writing this.
I've been in love in my head more times than I ever have in real life. Delusion has taken me across oceans to realize the fake dream of a romance with someone who never cared. Even moving to Lisbon was a close call, because I've been in love with this city for 21 years and had fantasies about my life here for too long. We become obsessed with versions of ourselves that don't exist, and delusion is the drug - the cigarettes I can't quit, but know I should. The ideas about people (or things) are always better than the reality, and the stories we tell always cater to the feelings we crave. In great numbers, I think shame can transform into shared experience and not be embarrassing anymore. I'm in this cycle now about someone, but I see it, it's early phase and I caught it. Reading this post was the mirror I needed, thank you.
What a wonderfully insightful piece. I am sure that all humans suffer from this affliction, but I was able to connect with it in a very personal and visceral way. Thank you for writing this.
I've been in love in my head more times than I ever have in real life. Delusion has taken me across oceans to realize the fake dream of a romance with someone who never cared. Even moving to Lisbon was a close call, because I've been in love with this city for 21 years and had fantasies about my life here for too long. We become obsessed with versions of ourselves that don't exist, and delusion is the drug - the cigarettes I can't quit, but know I should. The ideas about people (or things) are always better than the reality, and the stories we tell always cater to the feelings we crave. In great numbers, I think shame can transform into shared experience and not be embarrassing anymore. I'm in this cycle now about someone, but I see it, it's early phase and I caught it. Reading this post was the mirror I needed, thank you.